Depression

so get this...today i took an online depression test....depression is something ive been struggling with lately....it turns out its worse than i thought. according to this test i had moderate depression....i thought it was only gonna be slight.....to be honest i have had like a thought of suicide here or there but who hasn't...i feel like i am the cause of peoples problems and i no i am...whoa i think i need a doctor for this....dont get me wrong its not anyrhing big....and dnt worry im not going to kill myself it just sucks being upset and sad all the time